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After Colony 204
I've dealt with my ghosts and I faced all my demons
Supposedly, the wars had ended eight years ago. While the fighting may have ended, the memories remained to haunt those who had bloodied their hands in pursuit of revenge and peace. Most of those restless soldiers, conditioned to war, had settled comfortably into jobs with the Preventers, or settled down with a loved one... I've found you find strength in your moments of weakness
... or had been killed. But it was over, left to history's keeping, right? Heero left the cemetery behind, lost in thought. Relena was safe enough now, with an entourage of bodyguards, she no longer needed his protection. His job with the Preventers generally kept him busy, but he had begun to question if that was all life held for him, seeking out and destroying terrorist factions. I'm movin’ on "Hey, welcome back, Heero!" Duo grinned when
he spotted Heero returning to Preventer HQ.
I've lived in this place and I know all the faces
He knew them all, and they knew him,
his reputation. 'The Perfect Soldier', he'd been branded. Always cool under
fire, willing to go to any length to complete his mission. It had gotten
old quickly, living under the weight of that title. At first, several of
them had tried to befriend him, but he'd pushed them all away. It seemed
to have worked, entirely too well. They'd come to accept his standoffish
behavior, and let him be.
But I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong
Carefully, Heero packed his few possessions. Come nightfall, he would be gone. How would everyone else react to his disappearance? They'd probably be confused, and even a little sad, but they'd move on, or think he'd return after awhile. He was known for taking off unannounced, but this time, he wouldn't be back. It was long overdue time to leave the Preventers behind, leave Relena behind. She was besotted with him, but he couldn't return her affection. It was time for her to find someone who could love her back, and didn't have such a dangerous reputation hanging overhead. I'm movin’ on
Creeping through the shadows, Heero tossed
his stuff into the car he had commandeered for his disappearing act.
And I know there's no guarantees, but I'm not alone
"Well? It's a long drive, and we don't
exactly have all night, y'know." Duo noted dryly. "We can run off, set
up shop somewhere... Today's the first day of the rest of your life and
all that."
I sold what I could and packed what I couldn't
Heero pondered why he was going along with
Duo. Sure, it was convenient for the both of them, but there was something
else...
I've loved like I should but lived like I shouldn't
"... Yeah." Heero nodded and got into the truck
as well. "Let's go."
Maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road
"I suppose." Heero stared out the window.
"They can fight if they want to, but we're
moving on, so we might as well forget them."
I'm movin’ on |
Author's notes: Before any of you guys go and
yell at me about claiming to be non-yaoi and then writing a decidedly shonen-ai
fic, let me explain. I am non-YAOI. Yaoi being sexual homosexual stuff.
I have never said anything about being non-SHONEN-AI, which is more the
emotional or romantic aspects of homosexuality. Shonen-ai can be romance
between two guys, or just a really good friendship.
Also, when I first set out
to write this songfic, I started out thinking to make it a straight pairing,
but somehow, I just couldn't get it to work that way. Relena, for all she
and Heero would make a cute couple, just could not fill the role needed.
Heero and Duo are a lot alike in several respects, each living under a
reputation, whether self-inflicted or given by others. Duo has been the
most persistent in trying to get through to Heero, and given the span of
time, from AC 197 to AC 204... that's a long time to be living in a rut.
I also ended up writing this
as a Heero x Duo fic to make a sort of statement. To my knowledge, there
are NO other authors in the Wing fandom who have written a Heero x Relena
piece, and then go and write a Heero x Duo one. The fandom is just so heavily
divided along the lines of yaoi/non-yaoi, that one risks considerable flaming
or accusations of being a traitor to whichever side they're set up with.
So I'm taking that chance with the hope that maybe some other fanatics
in the yaoi/non-yaoi war will realize that it's a really stupid thing to
get worked up over. To each their own interpretation, for crying out loud!